Don't Waste Your Life

Life's a journey - don't forget to unpack.

Where it all meets

Perhaps then, it is at the cross of Christ that we find what we crave for most deeply in this world. Love and sacrifice, justice and mercy, faithfulness and grace. It is at the cross of Christ that all these meet, and if we dig deep enough into the core of our being, we will find that these are the things we will live and die for. - Me

To you, my reader. :)

There, look on me, so that you may not praise me beyond what I am; there, believe me, not others, about myself; there, attend to me and see what I have been in myself, through myself. - St Augustine

Missing someone

You know, when we start teaching young kids how to express their emotions, we often start by teaching them one of two ends of the spectrum; either you are happy or you are sad. So we ask little children about their emotions in terms of 'happy or 'sad'. But of course, in adult-life, things are not so simple. Everything gets more complicated as we grow up. Which is why we don't ask small kids whether they miss somebody.

Missing somebody, you see, is both a happy and sad feeling at the same time. Maybe too complicated for a young child to understand. With a weak memory, the lack of a real presence just means that person is not there. Which is why kids just cry like siao when their moms are not there. It's the memory of that person that makes the missing part happy. It's happy because that somebody is valuable to you, makes you happy, puts a smile on your face, lets you know you are treasured, and you know you are loved. Which is why you are sad when that person is not by your side when you crave for her. When you want to hug her, hold her hand, to put a smile on her face, make her laugh, let her know that she is loved. But she's kinda far away. But, it's the memory of that person that makes the missing part happy.

And so I daydream, smile to myself, look at things that remind me of her. Trying to raise the 'happy-meter' to a higher reading than the 'sad-meter'. :) Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. :)

In fact, writing this post is one of the ways of trying to raise the 'happy-meter' reading.


I miss you.

1 comments:

  1. Anonymous said...
     

    hey dear buddy. this post struck a chord with me :)

    and i do miss u! haha

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