Loneliness is the beginning of many things
Loneliness is the root of much of my endeavours in life, I realised. Sometimes because I'm not by nature very attention grabbing, I crave the little little attentions that people naturally need from time to time. This desire for people's attention has driven me to many many things, trying things that I would never have tried otherwise.
Sometimes I wonder what loneliness is all about. Having great friends that you can hang out all the time with isn't always a cure for loneliness. Sometimes, at the end of a great hanging out day, when I finally emerge from the noise of the crowd into the finality of some personal space, I feel a wave of loneliness wash over me and overwhelm me. Why am I so? I'm not sure, but one thing I'm sure of is this: in times when I'm lonely, what i need is someone to hang around me and cling to who I am, not so much spewing chliches like 'God is with you'.
I wonder.
Honestly, I didn't feel like going home so early too yesterday. Was enjoying myself with your company. Yearh, but i really felt I should spend more time at home. I hardly see my bro nowadays, i'm home after he sleeps and awake after he's left for school. And my parents too.. especially after i start staying near campus again, I won't reallie see much of them.
I wonder. How will I find bliss in my life again? How will I enjoy life again? I wish we could always do nothing, sit around in random cafes in Arab Street and smoke sheesha and drink Ice Lemon Tea and Oreo Milkshakes. That's what friends are for.. to sit around and do nothing in particular.. and just enjoy life together..
Edgar! We'll play chess together when we're 76 and single k!!
Sometimes I wonder what loneliness is all about. Having great friends that you can hang out all the time with isn't always a cure for loneliness. Sometimes, at the end of a great hanging out day, when I finally emerge from the noise of the crowd into the finality of some personal space, I feel a wave of loneliness wash over me and overwhelm me. Why am I so? I'm not sure, but one thing I'm sure of is this: in times when I'm lonely, what i need is someone to hang around me and cling to who I am, not so much spewing chliches like 'God is with you'.
I wonder.
Honestly, I didn't feel like going home so early too yesterday. Was enjoying myself with your company. Yearh, but i really felt I should spend more time at home. I hardly see my bro nowadays, i'm home after he sleeps and awake after he's left for school. And my parents too.. especially after i start staying near campus again, I won't reallie see much of them.
I wonder. How will I find bliss in my life again? How will I enjoy life again? I wish we could always do nothing, sit around in random cafes in Arab Street and smoke sheesha and drink Ice Lemon Tea and Oreo Milkshakes. That's what friends are for.. to sit around and do nothing in particular.. and just enjoy life together..
Edgar! We'll play chess together when we're 76 and single k!!
wah lau eh! never jio me go for sheesha. how can? :P let's go someday leh. hang around, laze around, chill etcc... hahaha....