And so it's been 5 weeks..
Looking at the past 3 years that this blog has been in existence, the stats show that I average about one post every 3 days. This average has dropped quite dramatically in the past few weeks since I had started work. I only average about one post a week now.. usually on weekends when I have some time to myself to think thoughts.
It's been a pretty good 5 weeks. I don't think I had too huge a struggle fitting in into the whole FSC system, especially cos of my previous attachment experience at Reach. The system's been ok, but the people (clients) I've met have sometimes really blown me away.
Really, when I went through orientation and one of the staff gave me a live profile of a case the FSC has handled previously.. I was like 'OMG. is this for real? I thought we only get this kind of genograms in our exam papers when they want to test every damned concept we learnt in the module'. And of course I hoped I wouldn't have to draw those genograms someday in the presence of my clients with the information they were feeding me.
How wrong I was. In 5 weeks, I've seen every issue we ever learnt in class take place in the lives of my clients. Family violence, spousal sexual abuse, child/ adolescent sexual abuse, addiction, alcohol, low-income, unwed parents, incarceration, drug offences, depression, chronic illness, sudden death, migrant issues, child leukaemia, divorce, remarriage, HDB policy problems, lack of family planning.. and of course the list goes on.
Honestly, it was quite overwhelming at one point and I tried hardening myself just to try to go through the motions. It didn't work. It doesn't help me, it doesn't help my client. I need heart-strength.
Work is really tiring. I'm more used to the schedule now le, and I've made friends with the kopi-soh at the coffeeshop next door. We should give her a 'Friend of >name of agency<' award cos she perks 2 of our social workers up every morning and afternoon; myself and JQ.
And when I eventually knock off, sometimes I just totally don't feel like talking to anyone. Those conversations in the counselling sessions just sap me. Sometimes just feel like spending time with cy and not do anything else. I go online, but I don't even feel like talking to anyone. Emotional fatigue la.
But it's been a good 5 weeks. I enjoyed myself. I hope I can continue to do so. Hopefully when I'm more settled, this blog will have posts about other parts of my life. :)
It's been a pretty good 5 weeks. I don't think I had too huge a struggle fitting in into the whole FSC system, especially cos of my previous attachment experience at Reach. The system's been ok, but the people (clients) I've met have sometimes really blown me away.
Really, when I went through orientation and one of the staff gave me a live profile of a case the FSC has handled previously.. I was like 'OMG. is this for real? I thought we only get this kind of genograms in our exam papers when they want to test every damned concept we learnt in the module'. And of course I hoped I wouldn't have to draw those genograms someday in the presence of my clients with the information they were feeding me.
How wrong I was. In 5 weeks, I've seen every issue we ever learnt in class take place in the lives of my clients. Family violence, spousal sexual abuse, child/ adolescent sexual abuse, addiction, alcohol, low-income, unwed parents, incarceration, drug offences, depression, chronic illness, sudden death, migrant issues, child leukaemia, divorce, remarriage, HDB policy problems, lack of family planning.. and of course the list goes on.
Honestly, it was quite overwhelming at one point and I tried hardening myself just to try to go through the motions. It didn't work. It doesn't help me, it doesn't help my client. I need heart-strength.
Work is really tiring. I'm more used to the schedule now le, and I've made friends with the kopi-soh at the coffeeshop next door. We should give her a 'Friend of >name of agency<' award cos she perks 2 of our social workers up every morning and afternoon; myself and JQ.
And when I eventually knock off, sometimes I just totally don't feel like talking to anyone. Those conversations in the counselling sessions just sap me. Sometimes just feel like spending time with cy and not do anything else. I go online, but I don't even feel like talking to anyone. Emotional fatigue la.
But it's been a good 5 weeks. I enjoyed myself. I hope I can continue to do so. Hopefully when I'm more settled, this blog will have posts about other parts of my life. :)
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