New Beginnings
The new school term has started.
Perhaps, due to returning from SEP, I'm less prepared for the start of the sem than ever before. I've never felt so un-ready.
That corner in NUS library, oh so familiar, has a kinda ancient feel to it now. Not that it's old, but that it feels like it belongs somewhere in my past. The past when I used to be there early every day till late every night. The past that I thought I left behind during the 5 months in the beautiful land of NZ, but then yesterday and today I realised that maybe the past wasn't really over. Maybe there was really just nothing more than a 5-month long comma.
Lilian commented yesterday that I seem much more refreshed having coming back from New Zealand. Yes, in some ways I am, but then perhaps that refreshing has a way of stopping me from wanting to move on. You know, the feeling of being in that wonderful cool swimming pool on a hot day and you don't wanna get out of it.
I remember in sems past, I would have gotten my readings all zapped and ready to go by the first week of school. This sem is really messed up, I only managed to bid for a 6th module today, I haven't got a room on campus and having to travel to and fro, and I'm really quite stressed with the work we have on hand in church. I need prayer. One thing that struck me yesterday was Wei Yee's favourite phrase: God is in control.
Indeed, He is. I want to believe He is. I need to believe He is.
眼睛打开 又是一天
会不会又重演
想要不再 让自己讨厌
却没法去避免
内心的自我已开始叛变
我的理想也开始走远
忧伤和痛苦已泪流满面
闭上眼在我面前
求你听我声音
来到我身边
把优虑重担
都放你里面
生命里的计划
你从不耽延
带领前方
信心走向明天
Perhaps, due to returning from SEP, I'm less prepared for the start of the sem than ever before. I've never felt so un-ready.
That corner in NUS library, oh so familiar, has a kinda ancient feel to it now. Not that it's old, but that it feels like it belongs somewhere in my past. The past when I used to be there early every day till late every night. The past that I thought I left behind during the 5 months in the beautiful land of NZ, but then yesterday and today I realised that maybe the past wasn't really over. Maybe there was really just nothing more than a 5-month long comma.
Lilian commented yesterday that I seem much more refreshed having coming back from New Zealand. Yes, in some ways I am, but then perhaps that refreshing has a way of stopping me from wanting to move on. You know, the feeling of being in that wonderful cool swimming pool on a hot day and you don't wanna get out of it.
I remember in sems past, I would have gotten my readings all zapped and ready to go by the first week of school. This sem is really messed up, I only managed to bid for a 6th module today, I haven't got a room on campus and having to travel to and fro, and I'm really quite stressed with the work we have on hand in church. I need prayer. One thing that struck me yesterday was Wei Yee's favourite phrase: God is in control.
Indeed, He is. I want to believe He is. I need to believe He is.
眼睛打开 又是一天
会不会又重演
想要不再 让自己讨厌
却没法去避免
内心的自我已开始叛变
我的理想也开始走远
忧伤和痛苦已泪流满面
闭上眼在我面前
求你听我声音
来到我身边
把优虑重担
都放你里面
生命里的计划
你从不耽延
带领前方
信心走向明天
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