sigh.. so tired..
dunno why, but i'm getting irritated with small things really easily recently..
for the first time in the past 1.5 months that i've been in Christchurch, today i felt lonely. even though i was eating authentic Singapore Char Kway Teow and Chicken Rice. I felt all alone.
i think i get isolated by my irritability.
i get irritated => i show my irritation => people get angry at me/ hurt/ shocked/ taken aback => i feel lonely => i get irritated.
they call it 'circular causality' or 'reciprocal socialisation'.
sheesh. do the terms even mean anything at all?
i guess the good-morning-and-have-a-good-day-shoulder-squeeze morning ritual is good. It helps me to put aside any negative feelings and just commit myself to loving this sister for another new day.
just lonely.
it's 11:47pm here in Christchurch. Everyone's far away.
Incredibly alone.
dunno why, but i'm getting irritated with small things really easily recently..
for the first time in the past 1.5 months that i've been in Christchurch, today i felt lonely. even though i was eating authentic Singapore Char Kway Teow and Chicken Rice. I felt all alone.
i think i get isolated by my irritability.
i get irritated => i show my irritation => people get angry at me/ hurt/ shocked/ taken aback => i feel lonely => i get irritated.
they call it 'circular causality' or 'reciprocal socialisation'.
sheesh. do the terms even mean anything at all?
i guess the good-morning-and-have-a-good-day-shoulder-squeeze morning ritual is good. It helps me to put aside any negative feelings and just commit myself to loving this sister for another new day.
just lonely.
it's 11:47pm here in Christchurch. Everyone's far away.
Incredibly alone.
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